Snow

Its snowing outside right now. It shouldn't stick (better fucking not).

Think I've got whatever sickness I had beat. Felt pretty decent this morning and haven't been having much trouble eating. Gained back the weight I lost as a result of being sick already.

Since I was feeling somewhat normal today, and I've been anxious to get out and run since I haven't for a whole week now, I went back to my routine today. I'm not sure if I'll be able to run much more this year though, as its obviously getting rather cold out (hence the snow) and I don't really have the appropriate clothes for cold weather running. Any exercise-like pants are too large on me now, and I don't really want to spend money buying spandex to wear under my running shorts. Combined with the fact that my running shoes are beyond dead now, the right one doesn't seem to be giving much support any more. Thankfully I have strong ankles so it hasn't been a real problem yet. Really can't afford new shoes right now. I'll take this week to decide what to do. I may just scrounge up some sweats or buy a cheap pair at Walmart, guess I need to go there anyway.

Looks like letters from the OPM are starting to arrive. Dad's came today, so I assume the others on my background check contact list should be showing up shortly. Hopefully everyone will fill them out properly and shoot them off pronto.

Other than that, been pretty bored. Just about exhausted all the things I usually keep myself entertained with. Can't believe I've gotten through 10 months of this without going nuts. May still have a few months to go too, don't expect a class date till at least January.

Speaking of that. Talking with a friend that's out in Wichita now got me a little worried about the future. See, he moved out there from the east coast and has been out there pretty much since I graduated with him. Problem is, when you transplant yourself in a completely new community like that, it can be very difficult to find friends. The reality is things aren't like in school when you have classes and campus to throw people together. The social network of school is incredibly intertwined, while the social network of the real world is far from it. For introverts this can be especially stressful. Even someone who comes out of their shell and does their best to meet friends when they enter a new community may meet with less than stellar results. After a few months this can become just too much for them. These are the realities my friend presented me with. Unfortunately I couldn't give him advice because as I saw his situation described I became increasingly worrisome about my own. This is on top of some general stress I've been feeling lately about my choice of going to Washington. A year ago it seemed like a great idea, now suddenly I'm starting to wonder if I haven't set myself up for a very lonely period of life. However, as much as I'd hate to feel like I was admitting defeat, I at least can retain the opportunity to transfer elsewhere, even to Indiana, in a couple years. Hopefully it won't come to that and I'll be able to surprise myself and make good friends out in Washington. Time will tell.

What a habit of ranting I've shown lately... Guess when I have nothing better to do I let myself go nuts huh? Snow stopped already.