Sick

Well...I don't know.

Spent the weekend sick, still am. I don't know what it is though. I can barely eat anything and feel like I have nervous butterflies in my stomach most of the time. It feels the worst when I'm just sitting around bored. I'm basically finding things to do to keep from being too bored but there's only so much I can do. I start to feel better later at night but the next morning when I wake up it comes flooding back. The worst part is that being sick frustrates me which in turn makes me feel worse.

Raked leaves Sunday to keep myself busy, but found that since I haven't been eating much anything that I barely had the energy for it. Of course more leaves fell after I raked so it looks the same now. Will probably go back out there this week and do it again.

Today I thought maybe if I forced down some lunch I'd be able to go on my run tonight, since I haven't gone for 2 days now. I wasn't even able to finish a normal sized lunch, and just thinking about it makes me feel sick. I can't imagine running is going to help things, so it will have to be put off for now, much to my dismay.

I don't know why I feel like this, I'm trying to be optimistic, I know I'll be getting an academy date eventually, but feeling like this everyday combined with the boredom is just taking its toll.